Yesterday....

Well hey there....

So it's finally starting to feel like spring and I am so ready for summer!  With the time change it's getting dark later, and I can finally hear the birds and frogs.  AND I got my first mosquito bite (I attract them like keRAzy).

This weekend I went riding on the old mule....and I reminded me of why I love riding.  It was beautiful weather and an all around good time.  On Sunday we had to wait out the storm, but after some rain it became so sunny and perfect.  

However, it was very windy, and ever since I took a pretty mean spill on the pavement due to a shed blowing over I have been very leary of wind.  Well, on Sunday we were down in a bottom and heard a HUGE burst of wind, the first thing I thought was that a tree was going to blow over...but instead I witnessed a leave hurricane.  It was so surreal, leaves everywhere, of course the horses spooked so I couldn't fully enjoy it, but it was quite amazing.  

I was supposed to get lunch with an old friend today, but we both kind of bailed out.  I really need to keep better contact with all of my old friends. 

 I applied for a ton of jobs today, but they were mostly pretty lame jobs.  I am so sick of not hearing anything.  I think I am just gonna go back to school...or something!  I just wish I would find something that worked, like was flexible and won't make me hate my life!

Diet is going ok....need to really kick my butt into gear!  Especially since girl scout cookies came in!!!!  Not good for me, I can tell you that much.  But hopefully I can continue to lose and not lose focus.  I will weigh myself tomorrow, but I don't think it is going to be great.

WISH ME LUCK......WITH EVERYTHING

Brand New Blogger....

Hey Girl Hey....this looks like fun!  I haven't blogged since I was in high school on Xanga (don't hate, it was so fun).  But I think I need a place to get down some thoughts and it's always funny to go back and read about what you thought was really important back in the day when you are older and think you are wiser.                                                                                                                                                                                                                 

So as of right now I am a simple 22 year old (which seems young but feels old).  I just finished college and I haven't found a job yet...thank you economy!  Oh what to do with my life, I feel like I could go anywhere right now.

3 years ago my life was PERFECT, but a lot has changed since then......                             

look how skinny I was

I'm struggling a lot with the horrible death of my grandparents.  Grampa died in a hospital after malpractice while he was in a coma.  Then, six months later my gramma died when her house exploded (not a meth lab folks, oxygen tanks).  It was for the best really, she was miserable without him.  Before all that happened, I thought people were really cheesy when they said, "everything happens for a reason" but now I am a believer.

My sister is growing up for sure.  She's 17 now....it's hard because I don't feel like she should be cussing or talking about drugs and sex, but she sure does.  What happened to our society?  The kids these days are insane, preggo at 15 WHAT!                  

My mom has a horrible gambling addiction (won't admit it) and it's tearing our family apart, everything was fine and dandy.  But she's struggling with her dad's death, so much that she blew the entire inheritance to become a seven star (highest level) at the casino.  Now she goes on trips and eats fancy dinners which is all comped for spending so much money!  In fact, my 21st birthday was spent in Vegas and the trip was paid for by Harrah's.....but I think I only saw my mom for one dinner in three days.  Great trip though!

My dad is the most hardworking person I know, all I can say is I love him dearly.  He has his problems, but life hasn't really been fair to him....he deserves a break.

I miss my aunt, she was basically my second mom.  But now she has retired, bought an RV and travels the countryside!  I don't get to talk to her like I used to and I miss it.

Other than that I hate a lot of my extended family, at least on my mom's side.  Her mom was a gambaholic too...moved to Vegas when I was young.  Or my aunt Char, I hate her but we will cover that a lot I am sure.  I just don't connect with many of them.  Most of my cousins smoke and party a lot and have kids....not me, how boring.

I want to be engaged to my boyfriend, Josh.  He told me last January that I would be engaged by June.....welp here I am, no ring and a brand new $7,000 horse trailer in his driveway.  Oh well, it was a good deal and we will have a fun summer.

For Christmas Josh got me as adorable dog, a Pekingese poodle mix and I named her Asti.  She is my little love bug, and an amazing puppy.....LOVE HER!

Okay...time to wrap this up here!  Right now my focus is finding a job and losing weight.  I have gained SIXTY pounds since high school!  My highest was at 211, so far I have lost 17 pounds.....wish me luck!  OK well that's all for now......